Ug. I. Hate. Diets.
I'm not abnormal in this, am I? I just have this desire to eat as much sugar as I want and be lazy all at the same time. Lazyness + Gluttony = abnormally large Annetta. And if I'm honest with myself, it also "='s" sin. Ouch. That hurts. Sin. My unwillingness to be a good steward of the body He's given me is....sin?
At the root of it all is this desire to do what I want to do. I think I should be able to eat homemade red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting and still look like Lolo Jones (I was SO gutted for her when she didn't medal...#TEAMLOLO). I also think, as I am a woman and need more iron, that I should be able to down a double-cheeseburger and feel legit about the "healthy" caloric intake. Meanwhile, if I get home and feel tired, I just wanna lie down and watch my favorite program or chat with the roomies over an all-evening feast of leftovers that we so generously share. Right?
So...a double cheeseburger isn't wrong. A cupcake isn't sin. And for those screaming "MODERATION ANNETTA!!" know that I hear you..and my passionate "all-in" personality attests, I'm working on the "moderation" bit. But until I've got that bit down...let's start with what this is really about: Control. In my life, there are so few things that I really, truly, clean-cut, get to call the shots on. Most questions of job, friends, church, ministry, etc., are determined by wisdom, opportunity and God appointments. But food? It's an easy issue to control. I get to decide if I'm gonna eat that 3 layer chocolate cake, when and where. And you better believe that I'm not listening when the angel perched on my shoulder whispers "probably not best for your waistline Annetta!" But when The Holy Spirit recently pointed out what was going on, I stopped dead in my tracks. This was just one more way for me to honor and listen to The Lord in my life. This was one more area that I had not relinquished control to Him in. Just one more place that I still had to "give up" so He could make that area shine like Him...
Maybe it's weird to you that I'm aligning food with His will. Maybe your control issue is time...you want to do what you want to do when you want to do it and you will NOT give up...etc., et al." Maybe your control issue is what your down-time looks like...you feel convicted about a program you're watching or a book you're reading, but you don't wanna turn it off or put it away. You murmer "this is how I RELAX and He wants me to have peace and rest!" as an excuse. Or maybe your control issue is a little better hidden...maybe it's something that you hide from your friends or your husband. Whatever your "control" button is today...I'm praying He helps you release it to Him today. It's only when we allow Him to dictate how we live that we truly live a life worth living.
Now. I'm gonna' go chomp on some celery and ask Him when I've waited long enough to have that cupcake leftover from lunch. :)
You are loved!